People say spiritual preachers are bogus. They run after money and women. They are mostly involved in illicit sex and misuse their position to fulfill their own desires. I can’t say that this is wrong but I don’t fully agree with many things. Being born in a spiritual family is an advantage which has helped me to see the views of devotees and gurus. Since birth, I have seen all the ups and downs of so many lives of different gurus and know the real faces of many gurus. When I chose to pursue the spiritual line myself, my family was worried because of my looks. They thought many women could be attracted to me and there would be plenty of chances that I could fall down from the high standards. They always taught me to never use the donation money for your own living, but to use it to fulfill the purpose it has been donated for. Otherwise you, your family and many generations after you will suffer.

It is true, if you are a successful guru, you can get whatever amount of money you want. The society nourishes the faith in Guru & God and people who have this faith in the Guru’s words donate money. Because of this MANY stupid preachers are preaching in this world, although they don’t even have any knowledge of shastras. Many of them are soft-spoken and use all the marketing tools and I guess these are the only key of their success. But since I am pursuing the same line and by God’s grace having read many scriptures, I explored their dirty mentality of making money.

I must say, they are making fools of themselves and basically they are cheaters. Since I have started giving Srimad Bhagwatam katha, people have started to take me in such a way, many of my so-called friends approached me with their money making experiences and said, “Money is not God but the value of money is not less than the God in Kaliyug.” Once these words left a heavy impression on my mind when I was on my England tour. I was not so happy with my program schedule. Because of my cousin brothers and other preachers’ influences, I acted in a weird manner; I called a few devotees and a couple of temples asking them to invite me. I hate to be invited from people who are inviting me because I asked them to do so. It is against my moral conceptions. Because I am here with my self-respect and those devotees who want to listen to me, who want to hear Hari-Katha and get my association will invite me. I am not here to make money. I am seeking love, respect and most importantly devotion.

It was written in my destiny to call them, and so I did and planned my whole trip. It was my first and last mistake and the England trip was not a successful one. I neither gained nor lost anything, but I learnt a lot from that. I am a Vaishnav. Nowadays many stupid things are dominant in the culture, people want your CD or DVD first if you ask them to arrange your katha, they want your flyers, they want to know how big your ashram is, and they want to know how many charity programs we run and so on. They don’t just see how you speak and what the standard of a preacher is. Who are they to decide who speaks nicely? Are they looking for Pure Harikatha or artificial preachers where money is involved? The funny thing is that 95% of the bhagwatam preachers have never even passed high school. All of them were a failure in school and so their parents told them to start preaching for money.

I made a rule straight after that, no more artificial Bhagwatam katha and no more calling anyone to organize my program. If there are pure Vaishnavs, who would like to hear Hari katha from anyone, I would be very happy to recite Hari-katha there only. No more drama and show off. I don’t want to be a fancy Srimad Bhagwatam preacher. I am the Acharya and I have to behave like that only.

Sastroktam dharmam uccarya svayam acarate sada

Anyebhyah sissayed yas tu sa acaryo nigadyate

“He who always presents the scriptural injunctions, who follows them himself, and also teaches others to act accordingly, is called an Acharya.

Since then, many devotees tried and asked me to give them my CD so they can watch it and arrange my programs in their cities. It is not their fault.

Krishn nitya dasa jiva taha bhuli gelo

Sei dose maya tara golaya bandhilo (Caitanya Caritamrta)

“The living being has forgotten that he is Krishn’s eternal servant, and due to the fault maya has bound him around the neck.” I know the value of Guru Name and I am not going to misuse it for the sake of money. NEVER.

I have seen the standard of money-minded preachers and these organizers and I always pray to God for their betterment.

Wherever money is involved, sex definitely finds its place after sometime. The spiritual world is non different from the material world now. Both things have taken place in kaliyug.

In the past I met 6-7 topmost astrologers in different places with my chart and each of them said, “Maharaj, you are a flower, and honeybees are there to suck your spiritual essence. It is upto you how to save yourself when you are in this line. Because once you are sucked on, your downfall will start.”

Women have always approached me with their stupid intentions, so I wasn’t really worried about the astrologers’ words. I thought, why should I be worried with this, since the beginning I am handling such things and I am doing fine in controlling such women.

Since I have started my spiritual life and became a Guru, I guess I can understand why many gurus fall down from their standard. It is one of the facts which gurus don’t want to discuss because of their reputation. After starting the Srimad Bhagwatam discourses, many girls and women approached me directly; all of them wanted to talk to me every night or wanted to be my friend or my dasi, or to be my woman for a day or for a certain period of time or for life. Many girls have approached me with their families and it makes me very sad to say that their parents were coming with them and asking me to talk with their daughters or wanted my contact number for their daughters. My heart was crying to see the big change in the Hindu culture. Are kids ruling their parents or are the parents really blind and have no sense for what they are doing? I have experienced and heard so much from my family and friends, that women try to sleep with their spiritual master so they can get blessed. I always ask, how do these mad women get blessed by this?

A guru tries to help everyone and we never see who is approaching us. All we do is, we try everything for the betterment of those who take shelter with us. But in India, I am really shocked to see such stupidity. When we go to any city to recite the lectures, Harikatha etc, people approach us to help them. Women or men come with their questions like; my husband’s business is going down, what can we do to save it by your blessings? My boy/girl is very old now and unmarried; please tell us something for his/her marriage? My son is not doing well in exam, how can he focus his mind on the books? What is the future of my son/daughter? We have family problems because of such and such person, how can we get rid of that? My brother wants to switch his job, when is a good time to do that? The real problem appears when the Guru starts counseling a woman when she is stuck in a big mess. A woman lays open her emotions and shares her secrets with the Guru so that he can save her from all the problems. The Guru tries to make her feel confident and later, the woman thinks that this Guru is the man of her life and she falls in love with him and acts crazily to get him.

I remember many incidents in my life where only my heart cried. Once I was in Delhi to give lecture, a few of my followers had arranged my stay in their house. In the night, the daughter-in-law of that family came into my room with her husband and said, Maharaj! I want a second child. I replied that “This is nice. I will give you one mantra and the process of puja which a pregnant lady has to do when she desires to serve Lord Krishn as her baby. This whole process and mantra is written in one scripture and we give diksha of that mantra to our followers.”

She said in front of her husband, “We want that you should be the father of that child.” I almost fainted but I replied, I would be his spiritual father that is what I am for each of my disciples. But her husband said, Maharaj, she wants to raise your baby in her womb so our whole family and the future would be blessed, and then they grabbed my feet.

I became so angry because of their stupid behavior. But that was not the moment to say anything to them. Even I didn’t want to make a big scene in front of their family. I asked them to come back the next morning. After they left, I was thinking, Alas! What is happening with everyone? Why God! You are playing with your devotees who are trying to save every conditioned soul in this kaliyug? Why are you testing your devotees when our intentions are pure? Or is it our routine check up? Why are you using those devotees who are struggling with their devotion? I know some answers are unsaid but it gives so much pain in my heart.

The next morning after the class, I left that house and warned both of them. Since then, I have experienced so many disgusting cases which only made me cry but also made me stronger, that I have so much work to do and fight this disgusting idea of illicit sex. I always get proposals from women as well as men. It made me realize how tough this job is when such kinds of people exist in this world who attend the classes to look at your external beauty, who listen to your lecture to hear your sweet voice, who try to get the blessings so we can touch them. The whole idea is so sick and I believe in most cases, the Gurus who have fallen down from their standards are not the only ones who are wrong. The society is equally wrong as well. The arrow of Kaam-dev is one of the strongest weapons and only Shri Krishn won that in Maharaas, not even Lord Shiv won.

Guru Krishn rupa hon sastrera pramane (Caitanya Caritamrta)

“The Guru is another form of Krishn.”

Lord Krishn said in Srimad Bhagwatam (11.17.27)

Acaryam mam vijaniyan navamanyeta karhicit

“O Uddhav! You should consider the acharya meaning gurudev, to be I Myself, and never disrespect him.”

For me, the most valuable item I carry is Reputation, Prestige, the state of being held in high esteem and honor- The Guru position. I always pray to God that He may give me enough strength, so I can keep this reputation of Guru Name and worship this post as Krishn only in this kaliyug.