Life gets really miserable when God doesn’t give you that thing which you look forward to getting from Him. Devotees write and ask me why don’t I write my experiences on my blog? Why don’t I update this blog like others do? I write my experiences when i start to forget. I only write when my heart speaks and when something really happens in my life. I only write when I really believe that just now I met God. I don’t want to express my madness, my foolishness, my craziness here which makes me feel God is everywhere. Today, for the first time i’m feeling more than lucky to be born here in the Holy Dham of Sri Vrindavan, in a Brahmin* family, in a Goswami family, in the service of Shri Radharaman dev. With other deities we do the installation ceremony but Shri Radharaman ji is the real Lord. How blessed I am to be a member of Shri Radharaman dev family.

Last one month I was dying to get Mahakaal (Lord Shiv) darshan in Ujjain but failed to make the trip. At last with frustration, I booked my tickets and called my cousin to give me company on this holy trip. I have never been to Ujjain before. I went to Shri Radharaman dev and asked Him to give me permission for Lord Shiv darshan. With some excitement we left from Vrindavan. Due to my cousin’s busy schedule I made a one day trip. And I was only going there to attend the ashes aarti which was held at 3:30 in the morning. While I was in the train I was worried because I didn’t know how to enter and get the darshan in the very crowded temple of India at 3 in the morning. We had to register our names somewhere. Not everyone can participate in the morning aarti. I had no clue how to get entry. On the very next moment one couple came and sat on our seats. The talk began; they came to know we were from Sri Vrindavan. This couple seemed very much enthusiastic to know everything about the glories of Vrindavan. The man was a civil engineer at the Railway Corporation and the woman was Bhanjan singer of Bhopal City. We told them that we were going to Ujjain. Then this devotee arranged our meeting with the temple priest there. He gave us all contact details which I actually needed. He arranged everything for us.
After we reached there, we were so tired and the heat was killing us.
“Bhaiya! We are not getting rain”, the auto rickshaw driver said.
“Now Vrindavan is here, today you will get some rain”. both of us replied.
Yogesh and me looked each other in the face, why did we say that? Our auto stopped in front of the Hotel. God!! Rain started!!!!
The auto driver looked at us and we were like, see… we told you… Really, only God knows how it happened?

In the evening we got ready to visit this temple priest. He told us, after taking darshan, make a call. After we attended the evening aarti of Mahakaal we made a call. But his mobile was switched off. I became really worried. Yogesh said, “Brother! Let’s go and find out where he lives.” We only had his mobile number. No name, no address and it was raining. I looked up and turned to God with frustration and asked him, what is this? Then we started to go to nearby shops and houses with the mobile number to ask if anyone knew this number. It took hardly 15 mins to find the priest. We reached his house. He was doing his Sandhya. After he got free, he told us that Sandipani muni was his forefather. He gave us two passes for the ashes aarti.

“Come early and get the front seats. I wont be there”, the priest said.
“Okay”, I replied.

After visiting a few more temples we got back to the hotel room. At 11.30 in the night I got a call from the priest.
“I don’t know what happened after meeting you. I am coming in the morning and will take you to the ashes aarti and puja”, the priest said.
I simply replied: “Okay.”

At 2:30 in the morning we woke up, took shower and reached the temple at 3:00 am. Bunches of devotees were in the queue already. My eyes were waiting for the priest. I was wearing Kurta and Pajama which was not allowed for morning aarti. We were supposed to wear only Dhoti. Yogesh was wearing one but I was not. The priest arrived. He arranged a dhoti for me. He bought two jars for us. After entering the temple, we filled our jars at temple kund. Lord Shiv only accepts this kund’s holy water.

After we poured the holy water on Him, the priest kept us in the deity room. Hundreds of devotees sat down in the courtyard to watch the abhishek, srngaar (make up), ashes aarti and mangla aarti.
Dozens of priests and pandas were in the deity room with us. We were the only new faces amongst them. Alas! Morning Abhishek started, such a beautiful darshan. We never imagined to be a part of this abhishek. I looked outside, hundreds of devotees were sitting there, but only we were the lucky ones here, very near to the greatest Vaishnav Lord Shiv. A Brijwasi (I) did the pranam to Lord Shiv on the behalf of Brij.

After this wonderful abhishek we came out from the deity room. Now again I became worried. All seats were full. How would we take darshan of ashes aarti? All of a sudden, a cop who was handling this affair, said: “Radhe Radhe!! Sit in the front row.” Every other single devotee was staring at us.
We had a very classic darshan of Mahakaal. Such an amazing atmosphere, I could feel so much energy in there. I was trying to live each and every moment.

After the incredible ashes aarti, the cop told everyone to make a queue. Now it was time that we could do puja. One by one we started to enter the temple room.

The main priest called us. In between of hundreds of VIPs, we got the chance to do the first puja. Yogesh touched Mahakaal and right in this moment a garland dropped from the Mahakaal deity and fell on his hand. He looked at me with the question, “Chandan did you see? I got the real blessing.” I shook my head. Yes, Lucky champ!!

Our priest took us to the courtyard. He told us, sit here while he is doing preparation for Rudra-abhishek.
After a long while, the cop told us to leave, because no one was allowed to sit there, and everyone was complaining to him. I could see everyone’s jealousy. It was but natural. We were being lucky and they were not.

While we got ready to leave the priest came and took us into the deity room. Now everyone came to know that we were from Sri Dham Vrindavan. In the deity room, they started to greet us with “Radhe Radhe!!”
I remember this lady cop who was on duty for the ladies in the deity room, was taking care of us like we were VIPs. The Pujaris were saying Radhe Radhe instead of Jai Mahakaal. We felt like Vrindavan is here in Ujjain.
In the very packed deity room where no one was allowed to stay more than 5 minutes, we got the very safe place, did Rudra-abhishek and other pujas for quite a long time.

When we finished, I gave my dandavat to the Lord thanking Him for making this brijwasis’ trip so incredible.
A few devotees caught us and hugged us to get a feeling of Vrindavan.

I made a thank you call to that gentleman who met us in the train. I told him what we got. He was amazed and told me, “Maharaj ji I go there every month, you got everything because you are a Brijwasi and a Goswami of Lord Krsna temple. Mahakaal was really happy to see both of you, that is why He gave you that opportunity which he never gives to anyone”

I never thought in my life that I could get the opportunity to serve Him in this nicest way. When we left Vrindavan we didn’t know anything. We were worried. But within a few hrs we became so close to this city and Mahakaal. We got those things which a normal devotee never gets. How could I forget that it is the place where my Lord Krsna studied in Sandipani muni’s ashram, the place where we celebrate the kumbh mela, the place which is the navel of India, the place where we worship the Lord of time, the place where one of the main Lord shiv’s lingas is situated… it is such a powerful place, and i personally am highly obliged and indebted to Lord Shiv who made our trip so memorable. It feels like home and now I understand, why my Lord Krsna had chosen this place for His studies.

*(those who say Brahmins are by karma not by birth, hide one fact of the scriptures, Basically only those people speak this who are not a Brahmin by birth. Scriptures reveals both facts, Brahmins are genuinely Brahmin by birth. By karma only 3 castes can get the brahmintatv which is not easy to get in kalyug. And each and every vedic scriptures reveal this)

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