After my trip to Omkareshwar, I was suffering in pain. I wanted to punish myself so I didnt use any first aid on my broken toe. It was the worst time. It was hard for me to visit the temple and sleep with a blanket. For one month or so, I only used to sleep 2-3 hrs maximum. I committed the big offense and i was regretful because of that.

Sevamahotsav (Festival of seva) started at Shri Radharaman Mandir. I started to go on the alter in mornings only. One day I was sitting in the deity room and reciting my mantras while God was enjoying lunch in His dinning room. According to the custom, we offer three bhogs. First bhog we offer to Lord Shri Radharaman dev & other Shailgrams Shilas. After they eat, we offer second bhog to Shri Radha rani ji and after her, Srila Gopal Bhatt Goswami.

First bhog takes approximate 45 mins. He is male and needs plenty of time during his eating session. Radharani, Ofcourse she is female she would eat little bit  We give Her 10 mins only and 5 mins to Srila Gopal Bhatt Goswami because If he would eat alot then who will serve Radha and Krsn during their Nikunj Lila time?

We say in Brij, “Bhare pet bhakti nahi hoti” (You cant do bhakti when your belly is full)

Lords lunch time is technically our short break. Today, after 30 mins one Goswami who was helping me on the alter entered the deity room.

He washed his hands and said, Lets finish the first bhog, Its 30 mins already. We are running late.

I shook my head for NO.

He replied, Do this bhajan later.

I said, Just follow the custom. You offered Him a Rajbhog. So much varities are in there, Let Him enjoy His lunch nicely, But Goswamiji did not listen to me. He opened the lock of the gate and pushed the dinning room gate to open.

What is this now? He is trying to open the gate but the gate is not opening. It is stuck. He asked me to help him. With the sad mood I went to help him. I pushed the gate with him but it was not opening. We tried to open it for couple of mins. I was shocked! We were feeling as if someone is stopping us to open the gate.

We were speechless. I looked into the Goswami’s eyes. He had understood what I wanted to say. I told him to finish the bhog after 10 mins. We came back, our heartbeats were so high. We opened the lock and I pushed the gate. Miracleeeeeeeee!!!!! just by my finger it opened. We searched in the room to see if someone was there or not and tried to close & open the gate. Everything was fine.

We looked at each other as our eyes were saying, When Lord is sitting here, is there any need to find someone else???